As above, So below.

So often we hear the words "we are all one".  "We are all part of the whole."

Yet so often we feel separated and cut off.  Isolated from something or someone intangible that we can't explain.

We know we are living in this world, born to our parents who live in a particular place. We know how we were physically conceived.  But ....

There is always this but ... something is missing.

Most of us switch off to this and just get on with living our lives until we die.

But again ... is that all there is?

Where do we go from here ... or is there just nothing?

This consciousness that is somehow, non physically inside of us, which makes us aware, which enables us to feel, think and experience non physical realities ... Where does it come from ... How does it get into us?

I address this issue in Downloading Spirit.

All of us talk about our Soul.  There is our Self, and our Soul.

We are conscious of our Self ... but ... we are not conscious of our Soul in the same way.  

There is a separation between the physical Self and the non physical Soul.

We don't really understand what our Soul is?

It's a vague, emotional, spiritual, non physical thing that is somehow real for us ... important for us.

In Downloading Spirit I put forward my belief as to what our Soul is composed of.

I put forward a theory as to how our non physical Soul and its members involve into our physical being without being fully integrated with us physically.

We are subconsciously aware of our other Soul members.  Occasionally we intuitively know something, or our conscience speaks to us, or ... it's like there's a voice, a Higher Self,  talking to us ... sometimes, it's more a gremlin ... how can you put your finger on this intangible, non physical communication ... this angel or demon ... that is somehow part of you ... yet you're separate.

How did you get that inspired ... or horrible ... thought?  What you just did wasn't behaviour typical of you.  Yet you did it.

Do these non physical members of your Soul, these intangible beings, somehow influence you?

Read Downloading Spirit.  Consider the theory I put forward.  Does it somehow resonate deep within you?

Is it possible our self conscious physical human being is about to become soul conscious multidimensional human being?  

Can we make the non physical experiences and thoughts of our non physical soul members realities in our physical world by becoming conscious of who our Soul members are and what they might like to express here through us ... our Self ... their representative here on Earth?

Think how much more creative we would be ... the amazing things we could do ...

with just a little help from our (imaginary Soul) friends.

Back to the ocean.

All day I have been seeking the inspiration for my next blog.

My seeking has taken me through moods that shift and change like the tides.

I've asked myself: "Why in the face of this patient, persistent sea, whose waves pound the rocks of the earth shaping them over eons of time do I think that anything I might do, think or say in my short, brief time here will have any impact, benefit or effect on our world."

Why do I think or hope that I can make any difference?  Why do I doggedly persist.

I don't know ... there's just something inside me that says: "Keep going.  We are never asked to do anything we cannot do."

After feeding my dogs, Gloria and Monk, I took myself down to the rocky shore.

As I walked along the rocks, stepping between the pools of water, surrounded by dried salt, my mind went back to my childhood at Bondi, and a brief time out, when I was 54, at a place called Patonga.









The sea does something for me.  It is beyond words ... it rejuvenates my being.








I looked down at some shells and saw the remains of a Nautilus Shell.










Immediately I knew what I would write about.

Shells, the sea, took me to sacred geometry ... and the Fibonacci Sequence.

Whilst I don't talk about Sacred Geometry specifically in Downloading Spirit, it dramatically influenced my thinking and consequently, my writing. It particularly influenced my thinking in relation to the Fibonacci Sequence and how I believe that non physical Spirit and consciousness move into a human being.  

I've given links to three websites which give information and more detailed explanations of the Nautilus, and the pattern within its shell which visually displays the Sacred Geometry of creation.

Nautilus - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Sacred Geometry of the Nautilus Shell

The Fibonacci Numbers and Golden section in Nature - 1

If your curiosity is aroused ... check them out.

Even better, get a copy of Downloading Spirit.

I've also uploaded the following Youtube video by achozen shaman - Sacred Geometry Explained.  This link is for Part 1 of 2 videos.

When we begin to understand these things we begin the journey of understanding how consciousness and life itself happened.

I think this intense curiosity and desire to understand is in all of us.  For me it is something I can't escape.  So I persist ... I keep going.  Even if a few people understand me ... the effort is worth it.

After writing this, I persisted with my promotion of Downloading Spirit by visiting Lotus Health and Wellbeing Centre in Wollongong, where I met and talked with Delyse Wright.  

Lotus Health and Wellbeing Centre | Wollongong Bookstore - Lotus Health and Wellbeing Centre | Wollongong Bookstore

I'll be giving a talk and presentation of Downloading Spirit there on the 23rd November.

Who are we?

The old saying "As one door closes, another door opens" is so true.


If we allow the past to shape us we often function from a fear that something bad that happened in the past may happen again.  We do not want this to happen, and without realising it the fear controls our behaviour.













As Jung said:-

Many people say to me:  

I saw your book.  It looks really interesting.  I love your writing.  

These things you talk about, I've had some experiences of, but I'm so busy making a living .... xyz#$$$..fff..@%*** &!!! ?... that I don't have time.  I'm too busy dealing with the now, the physical world in which I live.  

Are they lazy, apathetic, frightened?  I don't know ... probably a bit of each of those things.

Are they conscious of it ... probably not.

Again to quote Jung:-

Downloading Spirit is about becoming aware of what is unconscious and frightening to us that shapes and frequently limits our achievements and creation in our physical lives.  

 Downloading Spirit does require a little effort to read - not a lot.  

It does require a desire to take our understanding of life a little further.  

It does require us to step out of their comfort zone, and bring the unknown into consciousness.  

It does encourage you to trust enough to walk the edge of the abyss.  

As my husband used to say to me.  I love you ... but I didn't promise you a rose garden.

I love life ... but who said it would be easy.   

I've written this book to help people understand how a little bit of time interacting in the non physical worlds, can seriously improve our experiences in the physical.  How we can learn to use our fear as a means of creating an amazing new world.  

We just have to open our hearts and set our spirit free.

"In many shamanic societies, if you came to a medicine person complaining of being disheartened, dispirited or depressed, they would ask one of four questions. When did you stop dancing? when did you stop singing? When did you stop being enchanted by stories? When did you stop finding comfort in the sweet territory of silence?" 

It is in these areas ... the deep, non physical pools of creation within our beings ... that we find our answers and our solace as we face the challenges of living in a physical world.

Following is a brief excerpt from Chapter 1, Wake up Sleepyhead, of Downloading Spirit:-

Making the decision to know yourself is never easy.  As I’ve explained, the trigger for me to do this was John’s death.  So often we do this as a result of pain or loss when emotions are heightened and we are very sensitive;  often we think we have nothing more to lose.  It takes courage to accept that we are more than we appear to be.  At this point we can learn to walk through our fear of understanding who and what this sleeper really is.   

This was the beginning of my journey to consciously re-unite my ‘self’ and my ‘soul’.  To realise that this journey was meant to become a book had it’s roots in my considering whether or not to do a Masters degree on paranormal psychology and consciousness.  To do this I needed to meet  someone who was psychic to help me with my research.  I focused intent for a psychic research assistant to come into my life.  Experience has taught me that if something is meant to happen, focussed thought always brings whatever or whoever is needed.  

As always, it worked.  A lady called Paula appeared.  We found we had a lot of common interests and a friendship grew.  One night when we were having some dinner she said:   “There’s someone here wanting to speak with you.  She says her name’s Molly.”

Laughing she said:  “She wants me to do this.  Can I have you hand?”

I looked at her, curious and gave her my hand.   “This is  crazy.” she said.  “Molly’s asking me to do this.”

Her finger started going in circles in the palm of my hand, and she said:  “Round and round the garden, like a ....”

I had a sense of total disbelief.  I’d never discussed my childhood with Paula at that time; never told her Mum’s name was Molly.  She could not have known about it unless Mum had told her.  

“Mum played that with me when I was little.”  I looked at her.  “How long have you been doing this?”  I asked.

“All my life.” she answered.

My P S Y Chic had arrived.

After Paula went home, I went to bed and had a relatively sleepless night with many cups of tea; a busy night of Night Talk.  I woke the next morning knowing that I was to write a trilogy called Downloading Spirit. 

In 2005 we began the channelling and night talk sessions which lasted for eighteen months.  In this time, enormous amounts of confusing and teasing information came.  The channels and Night Talk are compiled in seventy two tapes.  Only a small amount of this information is reported in this book, but what came through contained many clues that triggered my remembering.  

One of the beings coming through called himself Mischka.  He kept telling me to extrapolate.  Over the next three years I did so much extrapolating I often felt I’d never finish.  I seemed to be going in circles, pacing the floor, crying with frustration, learning, reading, researching, making notes, drafts.  I was obsessive, being driven by I knew not what.  At times I was exhausted and overwhelmed.  Then finally I began to understand.  It was a moment of epiphany.  The writing began.  

In one of the early sessions I asked the self conscious Spirit coming through: 

“What is the purpose of this book?  What am I supposed to be communicating?”

The reply was: 

“You’re certainly not to talk about consciousness.  It’s what’s going on behind the facade of consciousness that we want to communicate.  The DNA, genes, consciousness levels, dimensions and their realities, all tie together.  For the average human, none of this makes any sense.  Conveying the information as you have pulled the threads together is what it is about.  We only need the essence, the DNA, the history and how it all happens.  What energises it.  How it works and how it just keeps working, this mechanism for being.  And it works for everything, absolutely everything.  Tie the threads and information together.  Do not use quattrains or arcane language.  We want all people to understand this clearly”.

What I originally thought would be a light, breezy and funny book proved to be very different.  The results of all this compiled into Downloading Spirit which has taken six years of channelling, researching, writing and seemingly never ending edits as `I try to improve structure, simplify and minimalise expression.  I keep trying to unite the scientific and the spiritual concepts in such a way that everyone can understand not only what they are reading, but that science and spirituality are part of the same thing.  I’m not sure I’ve done that, but I have tried to tie the threads and information together.

What follows is my extrapolation of what Spirit brought through to me.  It is a woman’s understanding and intuitive interpretation of the creation, evolution and history of human beings and our Earth, who we are and why we’re here.   Hopefully it will help sleepers like myself, as they wake to the new world that is, inexorably, overtaking our planet.  Powerful as we are, we cannot stop this process.  Shining through is my passionate belief that every human being has the potential to live a life of love and compassion, expressing and manifesting their one off creative gift in our world and living comfortably, in harmony with all humanity, our planet Earth and all the life she supports.  

Strange as it might seem we’re a bit like a biological computer housing different software programs.  Our physical body is the front end.  Our aura and chakras holds the interfaces and programming that connects us to the backend, which is Spirit, God, the Matrix of all that is.  The connection is our silver cord.  We really are an aspect of God.  We are a small ‘s’ spirit of our Source, the Great Spirit.

Many of us are just discovering that we’re more than a ‘self’ conscious, physical body.  We’re beginning to understand that we’re also a group of conscious spirit beings which make up our ‘soul’.  We are becoming ‘soul’ conscious. These other parts of ourself, our archetypes, the members of our group ‘soul’, are housed in the layers of our surrounding aura and linked to our human body.  This is not an easy realisation.  

First we come to think of ourself as our physical body.  Then we realise that our physical body is affected by the metaphysical, non physical bodies, our emotions, mind and spirit linked yet separate to our self conscious human animal.  At first we feel these emotions, but don’t understand how they penetrate and affect our entire being.  Then we begin to get the message.  We realise that each human being is a manifestation of expanding consciousness.

If you read Downloading Spirit, you might be surprised what you can discover and set free in your life.

Move Forward

Mask of Agamemnon

One day, long before many gods were born, I woke from a deep sleep and found all my masks were stolen. The seven masks I have fashioned and worn in seven lives. I ran mask-less through the crowded streets shouting, 'Thieves, thieves, the cursed thieves.' And when I reached the market place, a youth standing on a house-top cried, 'He is a madman.' I looked up to behold him; the sun kissed my own naked face for the first time. For the first time the sun kissed my own naked face and my soul was inflamed with love for the sun, and I wanted my masks no more. And as if in a trance I cried, 'Blessed, blessed are the thieves who stole my masks.- Kahlil Gibran

All of us create personality masks that we hide behind.  We do this without knowing to protect ourselves.
As I understood that I did this, I sought to remove my masks ... to become a more open and authentic person.  I began to understand the programming that had shaped me ... the positives and the negatives.
As I did this I became more aware of the members of my soul group.  Even as I'm writing this, I must admit, I'm still learning who and what I am.

As we become more authentic and true to who we are, friends change ... some leave, new ones appear.  This happens because our friendships, rivalries ... all our relationships, are the sources of our greatest learning.  Every relationship is a reflection of an aspect of ourself.  The things that trigger us the most, are often the parts of our self that we don't want to know about.

This can cause us to react by ending a friendship, a love, thoughtlessly hurting someone because we are frightened ... unknowingly ... frightened of our self ... frightened of not managing a weakness positively ... frightened of knowing who we are.

Most of the time our relationships are conditional.  Again, we don't like to admit this to ourselves, but as our masks are removed, we realise this is true.

Do we ever come to a point of loving and being that is truly unconditional? Probably not, but what a goal to aim for. The closer we come to it, the more turbulent and difficult our experiences can be, the greater our hurts and pain. Then suddenly, as if a door opens, we understand that when these things happen, it's just part of the journey of life and learning we all must experience to expand our consciousness. It's better not judge, get angry or hurt, react and end things. Instead, accept where people are at ... that they need to do this. This is their truth, and everyone's truth is unique. We do not close the door to that friendship or relationship becoming joyous and satisfying again. We let people live their life in their way with no judgement. Perhaps the friendship can even be regenerated again.

If we can do this, love expands, our joy of life increases, we learn more about ourselves. If we think it's necessary we make changes or modifications ... we could have done this or that better.  We grow.  Our awareness increases.  Our ability to love surrounds us and expands.

We now know that we can use meditation to change our brain, and how it functions.

Love... it surrounds every being and extends slowly to embrace ALL that shall be. ~  Khalil Gibran

We are evolving into a new human being who will be able to solve the problems that we have created reaching our present level of consciousness and awareness. Let us always remember that when there are positives there are also negatives.  For this is how we learn and grow.

Let us keep the good things our predecessors have created, and change and adapt, or stop doing the negative things they created.  They did their best.

We too will do our best, and we too, will make mistakes.  Mistakes are our teachers.

Let us not judge, but realistically assess, what we must do; let the past go, and walk positively and bravely into a new age, a new world.  Will it be easy ... no; can we do it ... yes.

We are Rainbow Warriors!

"When the Earth is ravaged and the animals are dying, a new tribe of people shall come onto the Earth from many colors, creeds, and classes, and who by their actions and deeds shall make the Earth green again. They shall be known as the Warriors of the Rainbow" - A Hopi Prophecy

Downloading Spirit tells a little of my journey to know myself.  It offers ways to help people understand how to expand their awareness of who and explains what I believe a human being is and what we are becoming.

We are evolving from a being that is self conscious, physical and mostly left brained to one that is multidimensional, left and right brain united and soul conscious, able to communicate with our soul members and express their knowledge and wisdom in our physical world.  The physical cannot exist without the non physical.  Humanity, as a whole, is just beginning to understand this. Many great people like Einstein understood this.

In Downloading Spirit I present a theory of how this happens with human beings in the hope it will help those who read it to make the transition into the new world we are entering.

It is a world where people will learn how to understand and work positively with their fears to create a better outcome.  It is a world where people will learn that we are all one, and that loving and helping each other, is the only way to move forward.

Don't let yesterday use up too much of today. ~Cherokee Indian Proverb

I want to see with the eye of my heart.

Our SELF, that I refer to in my Preface, is the innermost part of our electromagnetic field.

Our SOUL is our entire electro magnetic field.

I believe there are seven layers to our electro magnetic field, just as there are seven colours in the rainbow.

We too are made up of the frequencies of the colours of the rainbow.

My Inner Self, Rainbow Water, has taught me how to flow through the layers of my electro magnetic field.  When we do this we make contact with the other levels of consciousness that compose us, and we can access knowledge we’ve forgotten that we have.  

Each layer is a different frequency.  Only one layer of our electro magnetic field appears physically, this is our physical self in our physical world.

However, there are other non physical worlds, where non physical consciousness aspects of our self, live.  These are the members of our SOUL.

A numinous/noetic experience is a journey to one of these worlds.  Sometimes we refer to these journeys as daydreams or fantasies.  Some can be good, some bad.  It is important to learn how to do these trips so that the outcome of what we experience is positive.  We need to walk through the negative or bad without being overcome or affected by it, but learning the lessons it teaches. 

This is important to be able to do, as all electro magnetic worlds and beings are both positive and negative.  This is why we have to understand how to walk through our fear.  Fear is as much a part of our reality as is courage.

At this point of time in our world we are seeing the negatives of the world we have created.  Institutions and belief structures that once motivated us to create and improve our world have become outdated.  The way they functioned no longer works effectively.  Change is essential as we've run out of answers using our old techniques.

This has happened before ... but humanity is an amazing species … we adapt.  We change.

We walk through our fear.  With courage, we walk the edge of the abyss.  

We move beyond old beliefs and find the inner spiritual core of our being.

We tap into our Soul.  We return to Spirit.  

When we do this we have one of those experiences when somehow we know how to solve the problem, but we don’t really know where this knowledge comes from … but it works.

When this happens, if we could see our total being, we would look something like a physical human standing in a tunnel, like a hole, in the middle of seven donuts.  Each donut is a different colour and each donut is a little bit bigger than the donut within it.  We are in the very middle.

It looks like this:-

This is one of the diagrams that I created for Downloading Spirit.  


(My son Adrian did the graphics for me ....   

                            http://72hoursphoto.com/).  

If you read the book ... which you can do by clicking this link >>>>>>>>>>>>>> 

you will understand a lot more about this and how it happened for me.

The first part of the book is about my personal journey.

When we learn how to re-connect with all the layers of our electro magnetic field, our SOUL, we look like this:-

Another of the diagrams I created                  

for Downloading Spirit.  I call it                                           Tao Angels.

I think this is why we talk about angels.  

We are the ANGEL who fell to Earth to remember and put our SOUL back together again ... 

just like Humpty Dumpty.

What does Downloading Spirit have to give?

As I said in my last blog, this post would deliver a part of the book.  The part I have chosen is the Preface.

I did this for a few reasons:-

1. It's very short ... and … is at the beginning of the book.
2. It gives me the opportunity to explain why I would write something as other worldly and possibly, to many people, just too “way out there” …
3. “What does it mean?” many of you might ask.  Let me try to explain.                                                              

Because it’s a short passage, it gives me a chance to do this in the context of a blog.  Once explained, it may help to open doors for the rest of the book.

Many of the experiences I write about in Downloading Spirit are known as numinous.  Experiences from our noetic worlds.  A noetic world is a metaphysical world.   It is real, but at this point in time I believe that no one has tried to explain it in a physical way that makes sense to the average person.  

In Downloading Spirit I’ve tried to do this by explaining my numinous (ethereal, discarnate, intangible, otherworldly, sacred) journeys in life and the discoveries made about myself in these noetic worlds. The final part of the book is when I put forward my own theories.  I have backed what I’ve written by relating it to, and citing, proven physical science.

Aristotle and Plotinus were amongst the first to present doctrines on Noetics.  In fact, we’ve spent more than 2,000 years avoiding this subject as much as we can.

I’m hoping that Downloading Spirit can open people’s minds to wanting to understand the metaphysical aspects of our existence, as well as the physical.   If we can open to these worlds of wonder and understanding,  we can reconnect with our spiritual life in a real and satisfying way.  If we do this, we can live our daily, physical lives in a far more meaningful way.

My Preface is three paragraphs of metaphors,

I, Rainbow Water, stand at the edge of a chasm.  I walk the edge beholding all below.  A whirlwind spins the sand upward in a spiral and in the distance I see a cyclone of life giving water.  The howl of chaos vibrates through my being as it swirls towards me.  I gaze at the cyclonic vortex as it brings rain and scatters sand to the four directions and the heavens above.  

Safe in the eye of all vortices, I walk the edge of the abyss, gazing over my ancient land.  I listen as the voice of Spirit, the self conscious I am in all of us, downloads this story of how knowing who I am, enables me to survive the chaos, to know that without the chaos, I would not be, for the chaos creates the structure that holds me together in the eye of the storm.  

My being travels through each vortex uniting my SELF with my SOUL.  I know I am ONE encompassed by ALL.  This will always be, for the vortex spins through me.  Spirit, the Being of all that is, moves through it.  It creates me.  I feed It by returning to it.  I know I am but an aspect of Spirit and use this energetic force to create.  We are all a part of a spiralling, eternal circle of Being creating structure and order from chaos.

So first, who is Rainbow Water?

He is a part of me ... indeed, my Inner (or Subconscious) Self.

I first knew him as a child as an imaginary friend.  Then I completely shut him out of my mind and life until I was in my late forties.

Then, through a numinous/noetic experience during meditation, I became  conscious of this part of me, again.

Today, we co-exist most harmoniously.

When I am so centred, and grounded, I am protected from the chaos that difficulties and challenges cause in my life.  I am able to overcome any fears I may have and allow the unknown to happen. Then I’m able to create structure and order no matter how challenging or chaotic my life is.

We all live through chaos.

I believe we are never asked to do anything we cannot do.  We only have to believe that we can.  Belief is a large part of the Noetic Worlds, and we have the ability to make real what we truly believe … make it real in our physical world.

Walk through your fear.  Find your Inner Self.  Believe in who you are and why you're here.

I’m currently writing a workshop to help people remember how to do these things.

Part of me, my Inner Self, is Rainbow Water ... who is your Inner Self?

The Next Stage

I'm sitting at my new desk - the table of my motor home whom I've called Lucinda.
I'm watching cockatoo and crow fossick through the un-mown grass searching for any food droppings from other campers.
Much loved crystals glisten in the sun beside me.

No coffee at the Red Door today.  Instead a plunger brew of Gloria Jean's and two spoons of an exotically spiced sugar, made by a friend, to chai it along.

I haven't been able to write until now.  I needed to get back in touch with the earth, her energy and that sense of oneness which somehow evades me in city and town life - even in a village as beautiful as Leura.

From my last blog until I moved out of the house I was renting, life was frantic. Packing up a household and moving it into storage is never easy.  Cleaning, clearing and organising is stressful and exhausting.

Then getting photographic gear to Adrian in Vietnam after his camera was stolen, and solving internet communication problems in China only added to the pressure.

Finally there were the farewells with friends ... one possibly forever.

Yes a frantic and turbulent period.  As I drove off in my new 'snail' home for a test run - a one week trip to Sydney and Camden, I heaved a sigh of relief.

In Sydney I saw two people who may assist with promotional ventures for Downloading Spirit later in the year.  After this I briefly returned to Blackheath before leaving for Dubbo to see my horse Orlando.

Orlando is from an earlier time in my life; my time as a farmer and horse breeder. He's a beautiful straight Egyptian stallion I imported from Germany.  About six months ago he had an accident and severed the extensor tendon in his left leg. This was then complicated by a stress founder in his right hoof, his pedal bone rotating through the sole of his foot.  Both conditions are life threatening, but together ... ?

It's been a long haul.  He's not completely out of the woods yet ... the healing and recovery will take another 8-12 months, but he will make it barring any further complications.

I wanted to be near him again.  No, I needed to be near him again.

I also want to see parts of Australia I've never seen, and see where I'd like to live and buy my next home.  Possibly a few acres where I can be with Orlando and my dogs, in touch with the earth again.  Lucinda, my motor home was the ideal solution.

So here I am, parked at Terramagamine Reserve, just out of Dubbo, on the Macquarie River,
only a few kilometres up the road from Orlando.  I'm looking out onto the Macquarie River whose banks are lined with majestic gums and Silky Oaks.










I slip easily into that numinous space of oneness, wrapped in the warmth of the sun and rainbow crystal light dancing around me.

I'm looking at ways of promoting Downloading Spirit here in Dubbo.  Promoting a book is not an easy thing.  It's another lesson in life that re-enforces the reality that nothing is simple or easy.  You always have to go through an immense learning curve.

To keep Downloading Spirit and my travels as separate (though linked) parts of my life, I've started a travel blog called Raven's Road.

My next Downloading Spirit entries will give excerpts from the book, which may lead to comments and discussion.  It's now in print and available to purchase.  It can be ordered through bookstores and is available on line or through either of my websites.

Producing it has taken seven years of my life - time now for the next stage, to promote and sell it, and complete the writing of Book Two, Downloading Spirit, Gaia and Galactica.